First of all, my mom has been a diabetic for the past, oh, 20 years or so... Diabetes has made her life pretty tuff, she went 95% blind about 5 years because of it, basically she can only she faint shadows.
It also has been effecting her kidneys (a common thing with diabetics).
The last couple of years she's maintained a certain level to keep her off dialysis, and has actually been doing pretty good... And then about a month or so we found out her kidneys took a turn for the worst and she probably be on dialysis within the next 6 months.
A person can techincally live a long time on dialysis, but she has some many other health problems I fear once she goes on it things will go down hill fast...
And then theres my grandma...
My grandmas foot have been turning black (almost like frost bite) over the last 2 months or so. She's been to the local doctors and they give her some pills and tell her to prop up her feet (basically blew her off.)
We finally talked her into letting us take her to STL, the doctors up there said she had a blockage and her foot wasnt getting enough blood, and they're probably going to have to amputate it... We find out tomorrow either way...
And then theres my knee...
A year or so ago I crashed a 4 wheeler into a telephone pole, flew off and hit a tree, with my knee... I didnt go to the doctor because I didnt think it was that bad, and after a week or so it healed up, sorta...
Now every now and again it just sorta gives out, and they it'll stay sore for a week or two...
It has been feeling pretty good lately... I've been doing pretty good money wise, staying semi busy (as busy as I want to be), been spending some quality time with the family... and then...
Tonight I went over to my sisters to play with my niece, and I was walking up her steps (concrete) and my knee just gave away and I fell and busted my knee on the steps, it doesnt look that bad, but it's swallon and very sore. I guess I'll probably go to the doctors tomorrow...

This on top of a bunch of smaller stuff, it's just freakin wonderful... I've been in a very bad mood and depressed the last month or two, sleep has been non exsistant...
But I know that you cant really control these things, and it doesnt really matter anyways... I'm starting to not really care anymore.

